Has been very busy lately.  Finding time to just sit back and look around is getting harder.   I am doing better though.  I am just trying to find out where I really am.  Just hoping that something will happen to trigger a relaity that I will understand.  Everyday is exactly the same and I am thinking now that I am happier with it that way.  I tried to go out with some friends the other night and all I thought about the hole time was what is going on at home.  I think that my daughter and I just need to be togeather right now.  It is better for both of us.  I have come to believe that she and I are linked by sprit and I need to stop trying to forget that and embrace it before it is lost. 

I really wanted to do a full moon ritual the other night but was just really too tired and (I hate to say it but) lazy.  I would love to get back to doing my witchey things but it is harder than I had originally thought.  It is almost like something is telling me that I am not ready.  So I am just reading, studying and doing some light gardening.  Those things are fun to me.  I have been looking for some good 'new' books.  I would love to read a more indepth books.  Well I believe that is all the time I have today for playing on here.  Hope to talk to more of you.  Blessings, StarryRain∞

Lately I have been following what seems to be a broken path. I've been ignoring my sprit for quite sometime and sence then I have been slowly slipping out of form. Everyday is pleged with self doubt and fear (mostly of failing my family and school.) I've been trying to find love but have only found that I no longer love myself. I know that this is a huge problem. I feel as though that even by posting this blog I am showing how weak I am. I am at this point where I feel lost and can't find myself. Even my 2 year old daughter sees it at times. Nights are so lonely that I feel empty inside. I can't meditate (which used to make me feel empowered now just makes me feel more weak because I can't.) I don't know what todo. I don't think anyone can help. So I just wake up to more emptyness and lonely days. I just guess I want to know how to get out of this circle of nothingness. I need some help finding myself and my inner goddess.  I want so much to feel whole again.  I am starting to make myself read and study again.  To help me find my way.  Any thoughts on your part may help. 
Blessed Be